I WANT

When I leave High school, I want to go to cosmetology school. I want to master at hair care and design within 10 months of training. I want to move in with my boyfriend and my parents not be OK with it because they feel that i am moving to fast in my relationship. I want to then start working at a top salon and make my way through community college for about a year and transfer into a University to finish out my degree in business.

And within this time i want to ask my mother to help me look for my wedding dress. And when she sees just that perfect dress for me i want to see a tear run down her face and say, "This is the one". And when i walk down the aisle i want to trip just a little because i lost eye contact like the movie 'Run Away Bride'. I want to have my honey moon on a beach with white sand and clear waters. Even though it will probably just be the Holiday Inn here in town. And with my husband who loves me deeply place white sand around the tub and hand soap sea shells around it just to make me happy.

And i want to start my family. I have always wanted many children. Twenty-four is what my husband wants, but in reality it will only be 6. I want at least 3 boys Malakhai, Xavier, and Aaron, and 3 little girls Vamary, Ilene, and Makayla. Makayla and Malakhai of coarse being twins. I want my children to be close in age so that when one of them go out for recess the other ones are already outside playing and watching over them.

I want to get a phone call from the school telling me that my child has gotten into a fight, and to come to the school as soon as possible. I want to walk into the school office with my husband Khai and see that its our two sons Xavier and Aaron sitting in the nurses office with some bloody noses. I want to have a meeting with the principal and have him yell at me and my husband for not teaching my children right from wrong. and i want to yell right back in his face and say "I do teach my children right from wrong! And children will be children and some day they are bound to have a dispute between their siblings! But to be thankful that it wasn't with a fellow peer in their class."

I want all of my children to be active. I want my oldest Vamary to be captain of the her middle school cheer-leading squad. I want Aaron to be the star basketball player and for Xavier to be the decent short-stop for baseball. I want Ilene to be the tom boy that i cant convince to be a cheerleader or volleyball player. Instead her wanting to play football with the guys. And i want Makayla and Malakhai to be in boxing.

I want Vamary to fall for the for Aaron's best friend, and have him break her heart at the school dance because another girl promised him more than my daughter wanted to give. And i want Aaron to get in a fight with his best-friend for hurting his sister. And I want my daughter to show Aaron that she is thankful for him being there for her but never really say it.

I want to take camping trips with my children where my husband Khai tries to help me become unafraid like him and my children. I want them to scare me a thousand times making it seem like they are hurt to wear they see me cry and know how much i would hate for something like that to really happen.

I want to have my daughter Ilene sit my husband and I down with her boyfriend, and tell us something amazing but may be very upsetting has happened. I want my Khai to be furious to the point where he hops in his car and drives. And I want Ilene to come to me and throw herself in my arms and tell me how sorry she is for what has happened. I want to then get all my daughters and sit them down and explain to them that their father and i will never not love them or hate them for the wrong that they do. but we will be disappointed in the choices they may choose to make. And that we will always be there for them.